Over the past weeks, I have been encouraging all us to consider ways in which we are grateful for what we have received from being a part of the Cathedral parish family. At the time of this writing, I have received a few responses, and I have no doubt more will have come in. I wanted to share with all of you part of one of the responses that I received. This person, after listing a few things for which they are grateful, concluded: “All of these have provided me a home where I can continue growing closer to Christ!”
As I read those words, I was struck how with just a few words, they were able to express what I sincerely hope for all of us, that we see this parish as a home where we can grow deeper in our relationship with Jesus Christ. As the Rector, I know that this is one of the most important things I can do in serving you. When considering the state of a parish, it can be tempting to just focus on numbers. How is the budget doing? How many wedding, baptisms, and funerals have taken place here? Hoe many hours of Bible study, faith formation, etc., have taken place? How many hours of adoration? How many people came to Mass in the month of October? All of those metrics are good to know, and they can say a lot about what is happening in the parish. But they only capture a small piece of the overall picture of where we are as a parish. As I explained in last week’s bulletin, the more important indicator of the health of the parish is to be found in the somewhat hidden recesses of the souls of each individual.
Over the years, as I have been in a variety of parish settings, it strikes me that there is one metric that I think is a very good indicator of the state of a parish, and that is the number of confessions that are heard in a parish. This is obviously a number that I never intend to count or actually report, but I believe the use of the Sacrament of Reconciliation is one of best ways of getting a peek into that hidden reality of the inner disposition of the souls of a parish. What do I mean by that? Let me try to explain.
One who goes to confession has come to the realization that they are in need of Jesus, not just in a generic sense, but they realize that they need His mercy. It takes humility to acknowledge that we have sinned, and to bring that sorrow to Him in the sacrament that He instituted to assure us of His forgiveness. By going to confession, we demonstrate that we are striving to grow in holiness, because as Catholics, we cannot authentically grow into a deeper relationship with Him if we never go to confession. I say this not to shame anybody, because I know there are likely some, if not many, reading these words who have not been to confession in quite some time. I have shared myself how there was a period of time in my life when it had been more than 10 years since I had last gone to confession. But to my dying day, I will always say that it was that decision to finally humble myself and go to confession that changed my relationship with Jesus forever. I was met with compassion and love, and His mercy touched me in a profound way as I encounter His deep personal love for me, and my awareness of that love has continued to grow, due in no small part to my continued practice of regular confession.
As I look back on this past year, I am perhaps most grateful to God for the many confessions I have heard here. It is so humbling to be in that place of vulnerability, and I get to see souls come to life again, having been touched by God’s loving mercy. I get a glimpse into those souls, and it fills me with such great hope as they are set free from the burden of sin, setting off to begin again in growing into a deeper relationship with Jesus.
Father Alford